i'm having a REALLY HARD TIME w the current energy. my eyeballs continue to overflow with alllllll of the emotion coming up and out. feeling lots of sadness, grief, loss. senses as if I'm letting go of my former self, the false associations and attachments -- all aligned with last month's Gemini energy.

giving myself permission to see things as they are instead of as I Am. holding deep space as the taste is smacked outta my mouth over and over again -- I've worn rose-tinted glasses as a defense mechanism (Venus conjuncts Neptune in my chart, and they square my Pisc Moon) and am being guided to get downright ferocious about where I've been "defensive" in the past.

Saturday morning, i walked to a coffee shop by myself in Chicago. i enjoyed a delicious coffee and part of a Pluto class from a few weeks back... Pluto is about death, rebirth, transformation, surrender. He destroys to create and is quite prominent in my chart. i believe my Pluto affords the power to dissolve clients' outmoded ego structures.

either way, historically speaking, my sense of direction is flawed (nonexistent). i left the coffee shop, headed home and wandered for about 10 minutes before i started feeling confused and out of place. i didn't recognize the scenery...

shortly after i began moving through my awakening, in early 2016, i realized i was in communication with Venus. she presented as the planet, and guided me toward finding a new Lover, to use the energy of orgasm to create, so She may make manifest -- the Goddess of Love -- through me.

"anchor the vibration of unconditional love. serve as a Divine Channel. practice sex magic. you are an alchemist."

The past IS meeting the future in the present moment through YOUR human Self right here and now. Pay attention. Open to receive and set intention to integrate information safely, gracefully, at the perfect rate for you. You don't need anyone outside of yourself to align with YOUR Source and/or its inherent guidance.... The current cosmic energy will *not* be forced or manipulated; it's to be received, witnessed and experienced.

Mars, the fiery planet of action, immature masculine, warrior of the zodiac is quite disruptive in Cancer; the sign of the crab: the Mother, intuition, compassion. this energetic signature is dualistic/polarizing in nature -- Mars and Cancer archetypes are essentially energetic opposites.

the Gemini New Moon set this month's tone, asking us to get into clear alignment with that which resonates as TRUTH for us...