Lost In the Sauce


Saturday morning, i walked to a coffee shop by myself in Chicago. i enjoyed a delicious coffee and part of a Pluto class from a few weeks back... Pluto is about death, rebirth, transformation, surrender. He destroys to create and is quite prominent in my chart. i believe my Pluto affords the power to dissolve clients' outmoded ego structures.

either way, historically speaking, my sense of direction is flawed (nonexistent). i left the coffee shop, headed home and wandered for about 10 minutes before i started feeling confused and out of place. i didn't recognize the scenery... i felt lost, so i pulled out my phone to check the map, which doesn't help a whole lot when ya don't know north from south or east from west.

my phone had 1% juice remaining, so i took a pic of the map (HAHAHAH). then my phone died, and i started breathing deeply... feeling the confusion and fear and panic of being "lost" and unable to find my way home... all metaphors for the massive shift in consciousness i sense at this time.

i told my Self, my brain, my thinker, my ego wouldn't be able to make sense of what was happening.... it can't feel.. all it does is make up stories. my body; however, can! i decided i could trust my body and it's guidance system; i can trust my intuition and honor the messages i so clearly receive. i also knew i could ask for help and that i wasn't THAT far from the apartment.

i managed to fully surrender my process on the streets of Chicago, and i found my way home. i also found tall, dark, handsome firefighters to assist... and i cried when i found my Cousin and Friend waiting for me back at the apartment. hahaha... i'm also noticing that i'm feeling more confident about where i am, and which direction is best for me. whatta journey!!

i am BEYOND grateful to be out of Atlanta for today's Sag full moon... how are y'all experiencing the energy? i feel incredibly balanced and clear. wide. open. <3