Stepping Out of Vicitim Consciousness

this morning’s Pisces Full Moon bears fruit associated with seeds of intention planted six months prior at the corresponding New Moon. a deeply personal lunation, that particular February moon was conjunct my natal moon.

over the past six months, i have reclaimed and enLIGHTened the 19-year old aspect of Self stuck in the past, tormented over a drug-addicted boyfriend who consistently chose cocaine instead of me. i literally saw this devastated part of myself in the mirror one morning in Feb. i cried, exclaimed, “holy fuck!,” cut my hairs back into a pixie and invited that part of me to rest.

i intended to surrender victim consciousness (Pisc shadow) and accepted compassion into the space i created. i refocused consciousness on creating my body in the image of a crystal singing bowl: an empty vessel, resonance chamber, and clear, open channel in service to the Collective (Neptune in Pisc).

a few days ago, i started imagining Marty McFly‘s family photo from Back to the Future. this morning’s moon feels like that.

allow who you think you are and who you were supposed to be to fade away. grasping for old identities keeps us plugged into the paradigm we see, sense, feel fading away. perhaps you are called to soften, surrender to the Sacred, dissolve into pure Presence, and stand In Love (Neptune in Pisc).

you might devote your life force energy to pleasure and play. direct your attention toward whatever dreams light you up, turn you on, help you feel safe to Be on this planet (Mars, Venus, Saturn). divest and divert your attention away from the past. there’s nothing to fix or heal or do in this space; it’s about feeling, witnessing, awakening and living into the transcendent truth that IS you.

and this seems important to re-member: who you think you are and who you are supposed to be are not Who You Are.